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Experience is The Best Teacher

"Experience is the best teacher"



I guess that classic quote has been proved in my life in this last six months
To much to say to depict what happened
The moon might be fallen asleep if she listens to my stories


Speak less, but listen more
Catch every single moments and I bet you would never regret it
No matter how bitter the moment is
...catch it, feel it, hear it, touch it...
...subtly understand what lies behind...

Everything happens with a purpose
Nothing in this world is useless
...even a super small piece of dust...
God has created everything with His big plans



Thus..


I would like to thank God for everything happened or would happen in my life
Without judging Him for not loving me by giving me hardships

God loves us with His way of giving us what we need
...not what we want...






-a girl with thousands thoughts inside her mind-

I will see you later, friends...

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do todayAnd then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are forIn good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

(..That's What Friends Are For..)


.....everything in life is created in dualism....
male-female.black-white.tall-short.good-bad.shallow-deep.happiness-sadness.love-hate.dirty-clean.able-disable.full-hungry.patience-anger.start-end.
and also for hi and goodbye

I wonder why there must be such thing as 'goodbye'
Why don't we meet...stay together forever..and never be apart..

The feeling inside started from zero..
then as time went by, it was cultivated by time, cares and love surrounding it

A little thing as 'Hi' sounds very simple and sinless..
but soon you will realize that it can also bring you down when 'goodbye' cut its thread..

Why there must be such thing as 'goodbye' in life..??

Hugging your friends feels really calming..
but when you hug them when they are about to leave you...it does feel hurt..

a brief phone call (even just a minute or maybe less) feels nothing
but when your friends call you to say goodbye..a second is worth the world..

I tried not to cry when letting my friends leave..
..I just couldn't help it..

I did still cry

I hate this feeling..
feeling of being left
feeling of not knowing when we can see each other again
feeling of loneliness

I tried to convince myself that:
saying goodbye doesn't literally means 'goodbye' and not going to meet anymore
just don't think about the goodbye...but think about the day when we will meet again..on how we can work on that to come true..to hug our friends again like we used to do..
think about how many more people in the world that we can still meet and get experiences from
..think about the unpredictable good things that possibly could happen in the following times..
(my friend, Pavan told me about these things this morning-right after Jeff left)

I did cry...I wish I could have stop the time..and had all my friends together with me..

I hate a last hug
I hate a last smile

...I hate saying goodbye...




You will be always in my heart, friends












dedicated for: all my friends in this last semester in NTU...I love you all