Waiting

It hasn't been replied for almost two months..and other messages as well..maybe they were just simply not necessary to be replied on..things changed over time and you have to be ready for anything, Amanda..and stop all inevitable hopes by now and please leave them there..nothing is happening..

Things keep coming and going..

One day you may feel the happiness, the laughter, the joy

but in the other day you may cry hard and feel the emptiness

One day you may feel that your presence is worthy

but in the other day you may feel that your presence is nothing but ash

One day you can fall for someone so much

but in the other day you may feel your feeling for that person has gone by the wind

One day you can be sure that "he is there"

but in the other day you may be unsure of where he is

One day he said something that made me feel secure

but in the other day I couldn't feel his presence..

he is gone..

Gone with his own life that I have to respect and support

I really need to leave all these inevitable hopes soon

otherwise the cracks will get even bigger over time

and they will hurt a lot when the acid rain falls down to them..

Let his happiness be my happiness

be strong, girl..